The person who pointed out my eating disorder was a psychologist. I was seeing them about something else, when I asked her about getting help because I felt like my body was falling apart.
We talked a bit about what I was going through and she asked me about my dieting and weight and relationship with food before making that comment.
When she mentioned it, it fell into place and I realised that it was something I couldn’t do alone.
She recommended a few steps for me to take, to see my GP to get a mental health plan so I could specifically talk to a psychologist who deals with weight issues, to book with a dietitian to help me work out an eating plan that would assist me, a hypnotherapist would potentially help me out and basically to try to cover all my bases and help me with a multi pronged attack.
So, I did what I often do when facing a difficult situation.
I dragged my feet.
After she asked me if I had taken any action after a week, I delayed a bit more.
Finally, I bit the bullet and booked in to see a dietitian.
I took my food diary in and we talked. We went over a number of different things before he went through what he thought the best means of me dropping weight would be.
I was to start the 5:2 diet, but also to focus on eating foods which would help my gut.
But the big thing he recommended was that I be mindful towards my food. To stop and focus on what I was eating and when, that I knew how many mouthfuls I had.
By being conscious of my eating, I could stop some of the binging I had been doing. No more inhaling a packet of popcorn. I was to focus on how much of it I ate.
After my appointment with him, I was to try for a month and then go back to see him again so he could review it with me and reassess if need be.
I had no idea how I would go. I was scared, but I knew I had to try.